Reflections

May 31, 2010

Two Earthlogs from Celia Fenn...two days apart, after a long hiatus, "Heaven is a Place on Earth" and "The Fifth Dimension and the Family of Humanity":

http://www.starchildascension.org/

Today I saw three customers wearing the logo, "Life is Good!" (These were not new purchases - very well-worn T-shirts and a hat.) Just to reinforce the message.

Sounds like it would have been helpful to be present at Celia's gatherings at the Sea of Galilee and various places in Europe. Instead, I have wobbled through, with the help (and patience) of various friends and healers. I think I'm settling in now.

All blessings, Love, Bonnie

May 29, 2010

A message from Aluna Joy called, "Fake It Til You Make It":

http://www.kachina.net/~alunajoy/news06-2010.html

It has a lot to say on letting go of doubts - about ourselves, about our abilities, about our worthiness. She says, as many have lately, "Feel the fear, but do it anyway."

I recently had a message from a psychic medium that there were things I would have to speak out about, and that I would have to "walk through the fire." (Again!)

It could apply on several fronts, from work to ex-husband to living situation, to all of the above. I think it may have to do with residual fears that have come up since I joined a networking site on the web. I haven't been in any kind of open forum/message board since 2003, just after my dad died, when I came under a "surprise attack" from people I'd been talking to for years on another board. I didn't know they were the same people, because they were using different names. And it was a handful of people, maybe only three or four people using dozens of aliases...all of them saying that I was horrible and unworthy. And not just me, but people around me that I loved and cared about.

Maybe, from a soul level, their intent really was to help me. They certainly seemed to believe that "killing the ego" was necessary for raising one's vibration. There are so many ways to look at it. It makes me think of the guru/student situation where the student asks the guru to help him "learn compassion." So the guru throws the student out the upper window, falling to the street below, where he breaks both his legs and spends a long time being dependent on others and healing and learning to walk again. The moral is, "be careful what you ask for."

In my case it felt like the soul lesson was about setting boundaries and learning to love myself, regardless of what others thought of me, and stand in my own power. It was also about learning to trust my own intuition, about what was true.

So going back to an interactive site brought up a lot of those old feelings. At first I thought maybe it was time to "get out of Dodge," and hole up in a cave somewhere. Seems that some people on this path are going elsewhere...if I only knew where elsewhere was! But my feeling now is that it's time to face that fear completely and let it go.

So on this site, I was finding it hard to get my balance. There's so much energy flying around that it's disorienting to me. And there are apparently old fears around being misunderstood, and saying something stupid, and even of coming under attack again, so, of course, I'm putting my foot in my mouth at any opportunity! And these are family and friends, people that I know and care about.

There was also someone from the old board who showed up asking to connect. She seemed to be on the outskirts of what happened then, and somewhat sympathetic at the time, and said her husband had died recently. I talked to her on the phone once. I was pretty sure that she was a real person. I thought I would try for a while, to see how it felt, and if we could connect again. And there was little contact, but it just didn't feel right. So I am going with my intuition, and taking her name off of my list. It's O.K. to do what feels right for me. And I am loving myself regardless of what might be seen as my personal faults and failings.

All blessings, Love, Bonnie

May 27, 2010

It seemed a long stretch without a message from Celia Fenn, but her latest is a message for both May and June, entitled, "The New Earth Energies May and June - The Reconnection and Recalibration of the New Center for Joy and Radiance in the Light Body":

http://www.starchildascension.org/

From Archangel Michael: "Beloved Family of Light, as you move into the new space of Joy and Love and Radiance, you will increasingly move away from the old ego energies of guilt and low self-esteem. With this, you will heal at last a long standing "wound" in the Collective Psyche, the wound that produces ongoing fear of catastrophe and destruction by an angry and avenging Earth Mother. Beloved Ones, the Earth is not angry, the Divine Light unfolds in perfection as she renews herself. It is time to release the Atlantis drama of Global destruction and catastrophe and to replace it with the path of Higher Love and Graceful Evolution. All is in Divine Order."

It includes mention of the crop circle picture from May 9. She also mentions the colds, respiratory viruses, and sinus problems as being related to the opening of a new chakra which connects the thymus and throat.

All blessings, B

May 20, 2010

A treatise on the subject of Self-Love, from Moriah Marston and The Tibetan:

http://www.wisdom-magazine.com/Article.aspx/1674/

"Self-betrayal cheats the soul. To disallow love for self — replacing it with self-loathing-thwarts the soul’s opportunity to heal and evolve. Don’t presume that only the personality/ego is betrayed when loving vows to self are broken. The soul is viciously violated by betrayal’s neglect, withholding, criticism, shame. This soul wounding saturates the Path with an unnecessary suffering that the student interprets as required penance for unworthiness. Why create such needless unhappiness when the simple act of daily filling the heart with self-love brings such healing, wisdom, creativity, joy of being?"

Amen...all blessings, Love, B

May 20, 2010

Right on cue, a message from Lauren C. Gorgo, on recent events and energies. I was wondering when she might have some commentary on the last few weeks, and from her blog, it is clear that she has been somewhat overwhelmed with "fixing mode":

http://consciousco-creationalcoaching.blogspot.com/2010/05/breaking-free-or-cutting-loose.html

So-o-o many things that I can relate to in this post, like the tantalizing, and ever-elusive "dangling carrot" that has kept us moving forward to this point...and now, ha!...seems to have disappeared altogether. I also have been wondering if there is something that provides help on the physical level for thyroid issues, and feeling so low in energy. The problem has been mentioned in several forums, and I'm thinking there must be something on the nutritional front that can help us to stabilize our energies.

The message is entitled, "Breaking Free or Cutting Loose". This is for those who are "breaking free":

"The reason so much is crumbling at once, is because it's crunch time! Some major planets are switching some major gears, so anything unresolved that needs our attention will be rapidly surfacing until late June so we can tend to all practical details and tie up loose ends."

I think I am more in the "cutting loose mode":

"The difference between the two is that cutting loose is more of a feeling of being dangled over a river of rapids with nothing to grab onto and no one to assist you. It is a feeling of "this life is over" ...but now what?"

There is so much good information in this post, that I'd like to recap the whole thing here...but, if you want the details, you will just have to go to the link above and read the whole thing.

I do like this advice: "As we complete our grounding and reconnection we will become much more stabilized and resilient to these [lower] energies, but in the meantime, be sure to seek refuge in nature, love, laughter, creativity, or anything that can keep you present-focused until the storm passes and the dust settles."

Music anyone? All blessings, B

May 19, 2010

I had this image recently that we really were passing through "the eye of the needle." Aluna Joy's latest article, regarding her "Messages from the Heart" event with Willaru Huayta, reminded me of this image. It seems that for many people, the week or so prior was a "reset" of some kind. Very intense and challenging for some, euphoric for others. There are some quarters that we haven't heard from yet. I am hoping that they weathered this time alright, and am interested to hear their interpretation of recent energies.

http://www.kachina.net/~alunajoy/news05-2010.html

Here are some photos of the crop circle that Aluna Joy mentions, which appeared at Stonehenge on May 9 (on some of the photos lower down the page, you can see the standing stones in the background):

http://www.cropcircleconnector.com/2010/stonehenge/stonehenge2010a.html

It is a beautiful and breath-taking design that brings tears to my eyes. Aluna Joy says that the old and the new earth are merging now. I am so grateful for the message. And I'm grateful that people were out there on May 8, connecting their hearts for the greater good of all.

Here is another recent crop circle from cropcircleconnector.com...I interpret it as a beautiful symbol of the Human Angel:

http://www.cropcircleconnector.com/2010/Yarnbury/Yarnbury2010a.html

We have arrived...and so it is. Love, Bonnie

May 17, 2010

Two posts for today...first from Karen Bishop, what will be her last Wings post:

http://www.emergingearthangels.com/latest.html

Her work has been of immeasurable help to me in my own journey. Maybe someday I will be able to repay her in some small measure for all that she has meant to me. All blessings to her in her new journey.

And from Norma Gentile, a message from Mary Magdalene, called "Gaia's Love for you":

http://www.healingchants.com/newsletter5-10.html

Yesterday I was saying to people at the Spiritualist church that I attend, that I felt that my relationship to the planet had changed, and I don't yet understand what that means. This clarifies a bit, and what isn't clear yet, will be.

Love, and all blessings, Bonnie

May 14, 2010

I went back over some recent channelings from Steve Rother where The Group mentioned that there may be some ups and downs, particularly emotionally speaking, related to solar flares. Keeping our balance is important right now. Here is the link:

http://www.lightworker.com/beacons/2010/2010_05-Magnetosphere.php

And an uplifting message from The Arcturians through Lauren C. Gorgo, on the subject of The Frequency of Free Choice:

http://galactic-times.blogspot.com/2010/05/frequency-of-free-choice-arcturian.html

She says that "Scalar wave frequency is the frequency of free choice. It is a neutrally participating energy wave which corresponds to intent, and by which, alters the state of electromagnetic particles. These particles, when programmed with intention, combine or cluster with like-energies to form a pattern of energy that superimposes itself into physical form."

Interesting commentary. All blessings, Love, Bonnie

May 6, 2010

From Shala Mata, an article entitled, "Our Heart Portal":

http://lightworker.com/Spectrum//articles/402/1/-Our-Heart-Portal-/Page1.html

She says, "During the month of May we will begin to feel an expansion of energy and a quickening in our vibration. This is due in part to the tremendous vibrational upgrades we have assimilated during the past four months. The first two weeks of the month will still hold some of the contracted energy we've been navigating, especially in the physical body. The bottomless pit of fatigue, body pain and general malaise should start to lift by mid-month. Sleep patterns will still be challenging and finding ways to let go without judgement and rest will be vitally important." Good news! A bit of respite.

She also is the first person who has said in so many words, "Our beloved Mother also has a "heart portal" a sacred crystalline cave of quantum vibrational vortices that pulse with the lifeforce of our higher dimensional earth as she prepares for her ascension to a star."

Of course, this is what I see happening, as well. It involves the shifting of vibration of millions of people. It is not something to be feared, but it may also be, as noted in my last post, a challenging process to go through, at times. We are shifting vibration along with the planet. And, yes, there are "mini-deaths" along the way, and letting go, and expanding into the new.

All blessings, Love, Bonnie

May 5, 2010

Interesting comments in Karen Bishop's latest Wings title: "The Three Options":

http://www.emergingearthangels.com/latest.html

Not surprisingly, as I often find her to have her finger on the pulse of the moment for my own experience, I also felt that I had one of those "exit points" before me at about the same time that she did. It was actually Friday night through Saturday night. I was so sick, and having trouble breathing, and I started to question whether I was supposed to remain in my body. There are limits to our abilities to bounce back. Was it time to go? Was it ever really going to get easier? I wondered how all this related to the spreading oil spill, which I really wasn't able to give much attention to. Did I even want to stay in my body on this shifting planet? I felt like I could easily have left, if that was what I chose, and it took me a while to decide.

And when I did decide, I called in the help of all the unseen guidance realms, and things shifted, and I gradually began to feel better.

So I have cancelled out the third choice. I'm still here. I don't know yet if I will be "hunkering down" (which I feel like I've been doing for several years now), or "making it happen." I would like to go with the second choice, and hopefully, my energy levels will return so that it's possible. Right now, I'm still feeling a bit disconnected from my body.

I know no one said this was an easy process. I have wondered all along how we make that transition to a new way of being. It unfolds in fits and starts, and we make choices, and it unfolds again. If you are struggling a bit right now, you are not alone.

Here also, is a look ahead from Jen Eremith:

http://www.akashictransformations.net/mc/page.do?sitePageId=53332&orgId=akt

The advice continues to be: Be gentle with yourself

All blessings, Love, Bonnie